Monday, February 3, 2014

In Memoriam: Bonnie Blue Treleaven


Bonnie Blue Treleaven

October 25, 2003  -  January 31, 2014


Dear Bonnie Blue:

You are loved.  I hope you understood that as you tried so bravely to hang-on to life.  You were the boss of the family, and you always got your way.  I always succumbed to your every whim, and I hope you don't think I let you down when you needed me most.  This I couldn't fix.

You were my constant companion, you were my little shadow.  You always had me in your sights, and you loved for me to hold you.  You enjoyed blogging with me, and I think you were a wee bit sad when the girls outgrew story time.

You grew-up with my girls.  We adopted you when Shelley was in Kindergarten, Shanley Belle in fifth grade.  I knew that this sad day would come because you were a rescue puppy with a heart condition.  But really there was nothing wrong with your heart:  It was made of gold.  You loved the girls and comforted them when they had bad days and when their feelings were hurt.

You loved the lake, the boat, and golf cart.  You always thought you should be with Mr. Art @ Home on the golf cart and boat.  I think you were happiest on boat rides!

You loved carpool.  It made you happy seeing all the children and getting extra attention.  Today was so hard for Shelley and me.  Carpool will never be the same.

I loved your quirky little habits, like:  how you put yourself in timeout in the foyer when you were naughty;  how you chased Mr. Art when he took out the trash (you had an odd aversion to trash bags); how you barked whenever anyone walked up or down the stairs.

You were also naughty when you stretched out on the bathmat every single time I took a shower and wouldn't move when I needed it.

Tonight I made your favorite:  chicken noodle soup.  It was your favorite because I always shared a few bites of chicken with you!  I cried when I chopped the chicken and put it back in the stock pot.

I keep listening for your sweet little paws on the hardwood floor.  I miss that sound.

I miss the how your little paws smelled like corn chips.

You are so missed, and I'm trying very hard not to be devastated.  You never liked it when any of us was hurt or crying.  You would scratch us with your little paw until we picked you up and then you'd lick us. 

So Bonnie, I will try very hard to be brave, just like you were on your last day. I am so proud of you, and I love you so much.

I will try to celebrate that your struggles are over, and that you are now whole.

So until that day comes when I cross the Rainbow Bridge and join you in your shenanigans, I will follow your lead and keep a stiff upper lip.  After all, you are Scottish in origin.

Just know that while you play in that mystic green meadow that you took a large piece of my heart with you.

I will always love you,
Mommie Ricki Jill

49 comments:

  1. Oh Ricki Jill, tears are streaming down my face and my heart is breaking for you and your family. It is so hard to loose our furry family members, we know this pain all too well. Bonnie was very blessed to be a part of your family for all these years and you will have your memories to keep her forever close in your hearts.
    Blessings,
    Cindy

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  2. Oh no...so very sorry. I am saddened by your news, and that this was how you spent your recovery from a very trying week last week. Much love.

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  3. I can't help but cry as I read this. I know how devastating such a loss is. You have written a wonderful tribute to her. My heart goes out to you. xoxoxo
    You and your family have my deepest sympathies.

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  4. I have thought of you often today and Shelley. Your tribute is very touching and beautiful. My husband asked me if everything is okay because of the tears. Your family and Bonnie have been blessed. {{{HUGS}}}

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  5. I'm so sorry, RJ, for you and your family. Bonnie was blessed to have you as her family. ♡

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  6. My deepest condolences. (((HUGS)))

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  7. Oh honey, you made me cry reminding me of my 'boss Ben,' our pug who died 3 years ago at almost 13. My heart goes out to you sweetie...and your family.
    Hugs,
    FABBY

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  8. I'm so sorry Ricki Jill, you have to remember that Bonnie Blue was so very lucky to have you!

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  9. As you know I am very sorry you lost Bonnie. This is a wonderful tribute to a wonderful dog. It's going to take a long time to get used to her not being there. And that is hard but it just means you loved her much and she was a big part of your family.

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  10. I am just reading this in tears. I am so sad for you. We bloggers are going to have fun seeing a lot of reunions at that Rainbow Brdge.

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  11. I know exactly what you are going through after losing our precious Dorje last summer. The house is not the same, actions are not the same and there is a piece of your heart missing. My prayers are with you and your family as you adjust to life without Bonnie.

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  12. Ricki Jill i am so sorry. O my gosh tears are running down my face. What wonderful words you have left in her memory. It is so hard to lose a loved one Peace be with you and the family as you mourn the loss of your beloved family memeber
    Amy

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  13. Oh...RJ...I'm not not a crier and I'm so trying to hold it back...I didn't even know your precious angel. When you said her paws smelled like like corn chips I lost it. I am wishing you all the peace and love in the world as you mourn and move on...of course she will always be with you. Why can't they live longer? They are so full of life and then it just goes downhill so fast.

    Sending much love to you and a big hug.

    Xo,
    Jane

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  14. Oh I am so sorry!! So sorry. The pets we have when our kids are growing up are so special and that will never change. We went through it three years ago. Thinking of you and your family and sending hugs.

    Stacey

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  15. Oh no! My condolences, Ricki. Your post was so beautiful. My dad lost both his dogs in less than 2 months, it's sad, but I knew they were both really old :(

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  16. I'm so sorry, Ricki ~ my heart aches for you and your family, I know it is so painful to lose our faithful friends.

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  17. Oh Ricki I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Our fur kids are the best.
    HugsXX

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  18. I'm so very sorry, RJ. Hugs to you.

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  19. My heart just broke for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I am dreading the day that my senior babies have to say goodbye. I love this sweet tribute to Bonnie and all reading all the wonderful things you'll remember about her. Hugs.

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  20. Oh dear Ricki.. I'm so sad for you. Our beloved pets are not with is for nearly enough time. I've been in your shoes.. and we are soon to be there again as my old springer is nearing the end of her life. Take care my friend and reach out to us when you need to.

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  21. Oh sweetie I am so, so sorry! *hugs* Bonnie's happy little furface was always fun to see on your blog, and that she lived to 11 even with a heart condition is pretty amazing. I know she was sustained by your love (and treats), and I know how much it hurts that life carries on as if the world doesn't know what it lost, but you WILL see her again. And now Fat Joe has someone to keep him company (whose paws smell like corn chips...he'd dig that). Love and condolences to you and your family.

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  22. Oh, I am so sorry. She was such a great little dog. {hug}

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  23. Oh RJ, this brought tears to my eyes... I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute.

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  24. RJ,
    There are no words to convey the sympathy I feel for you and your family during this time of loss. It is one of the most difficult things to do, to let a beloved family member, whether canine or feline, go to doggie/kitty heaven. Hugs to you and your family.
    xo,
    Karen

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  25. I am so sorry, Ricki Jill. Pets are like our children, but they don't grow up & move away, but they do grow old and get sick just like we do. We just have to try to give them as much of that unconditional love like they give us. My heart hurts for you and your family.
    Hugs,
    Carol

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  26. OH Ricki Jill my heartfelt sympathy and love and many blessings to you. I know anything said never helps. It is sooo overly painful to lose a pet.
    All I can say is I am really sorry for your loss...
    Pamela xoxo

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  27. Ricki Jill dear, it was so hard for me to read this post... because I understand you so much, and cannot think how difficult it will be for us to when our little Yumi will leaveus... so... ( need to wipe tears gosh..) I hope that today's ears will soon leave space to smiles and sweet memories. I hug you tight, ciao
    Lisa

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  28. Ricki Jill, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. xo Laura

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  29. Way to make me cry, this made me think of Dot Dot our Fox Terrier who passed away like 10 years ago but still she is missed by all in the family

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  30. Oh Ricki Jill, my heart goes out to you. What a terrible week you've had my friend. I wish I could give you a big hug. Take care of yourself and your precious family. Sweet hugs, Diane

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  31. Oh dear girl I’m so sorry for your loss. I knew you’d had a bad snow week but I didn’t realize your little sweet friend was in trouble. No words, only time to help you cope. I only say this because I’ve been through it. Hugs all around..................

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  32. Oh Ricki Jill, I am so sorry, this breaks my heart and brings me to tears...thinking of you ♥

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  33. R.I.P Bonnie Blue. You were loved. We will be there for your momma.

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  34. Dear Ricki - I'm so sorry for your loss of dear sweet Bonnie Blue ... I know she will forever hold a special place in your heart as well as your family.

    Sending warm hugs and comfort, Katie

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  35. ahhhhhhh... I am so sorry to learn of Bonnie Blue's passing.....
    I know what you are going through. 3 years ago my beloved Silky Terrier, Penny, passed on..... I think about her all the time and miss her every day.... my heart still aches....
    so sorry.....
    Lorraine

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  36. Ricki Jill
    Sending you prayers soo saddened and sorry to hear about Bonnie Blue
    I know the feeling its like a whole in your heart
    xo
    Pam

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  37. I'm so sorry about Bonnie. They sure break our hearts when they go over the Rainbow Bridge. (((((HUGS))))

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  38. I'm so sorry. I just found your blog tonight and I feel so bad for you that the year has begun with so much sadness and stress.

    Love and Prayers,

    Val

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  39. I'm so sorry I missed this post. I have been there so many times and I know the hurt in your heart will never completely heal. What a lucky, little doggy she was to be rescued by a family that would love her this much!

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  40. Losing a beloved pet is really no different than losing any other family member. I am so sorry your beloved Bonnie Blue is no longer with you. But think of all the lovely memories you and your family have to share! My cocker spaniel died 20 years ago, and we still talk about him very fondly and laugh about some of his antics in much the same way we talk about other family members who have passed on. She gave you something priceless: unconditional love. And you gave her a life with a family who loved her when you rescued her. You will always have those things.

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  41. I'm so sad for you and the family. I know how much you loved Bonnie Blue. I always loved seeing her in your pictures. She was a little doll. I will miss her also. Your post made me cry. I'm so sorry for your loss. They certainly bring lots of joy to our lives, but it hurts so bad to loose that unconditional love. Big hug!

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  42. I am so sorry to hear about Bonnie Blue. We had Mandy for over 16 years and we still miss her today.

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  43. What a beauty Bonnie Blue was. Thinking of you RJ. Sorry to hear about this.

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  44. Oh I am so so so very sorry for your loss. My heart is sad for you, Bonnie was such a lovely pup! Sending you much love and support!

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  45. Bonnie Blue will ALWAYS be in your heart. Our precious fur babies leave their paw prints on our hearts and their love in our homes too. may the happy memories help you through.......oxox

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  46. Awww...that was a really sweet memorium for Bonnie Blue. I noticed her in your blog picture before I even read that she had passed away. Such a pretty girl.

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  47. :(

    Hope your heart has healed a bit since writing this.

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